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We have some wonderful friends that are adopting a baby and he was born this week. Listening to them talk about their baby and the emotions that go along with adopting; it's really made us reflect on when we adopted Lilly and how much we would love to have another one. I try not to be bitter or sad that we can't just have a baby the "easy" way and at how difficult it is to adopt, but sometimes it really hits me. I do wish it was easier, but when I think about what life would have been had we not had this struggle of infertility - it would've been so different. We started trying to get pregnant just before our first anniversary. If everything had happened according to OUR plan, we would have an 8 year old right now and probably 3 or 4 kids. It's crazy to think that. But, we wouldn't have our Lilly. In looking back, I realize that our struggles all happened for a reason and Lilly was meant to be in our family. It's been an amazing year and I have appreciated every moment we've had with our daughter, but these past few months have been hard. I got my hopes up one day thinking I was pregnant, for the first time in over 2 years. Unfortunately, it was not so. But I keep thinking about having a cute little baby around. Hopefully soon we will be able to get it all started back up again and our sweet little toddler will have someone else to torment besides the dog. :) We have had a couple people contact us about a possible adoption, but it didn't work out (for the best though). We can't wait for our family to expand and we pray we will be blessed with another baby someday; sooner rather than later. Having Lilly helps us realize that the right baby will be in our home when s/he is suppose to. And once again, it will be beautifully wonderful!